Finding the Words

Lately, I keep wishing
I was smarter

Or, maybe ‘smarter’

Is the wrong word

Maybe I just wish
I was more articulate

Or--insightful

Insightful

Is probably

The right word

I wish I could

Find the words

I think we’re all

Sort of feeling that way

It’s like we’re all close

To something
But we don’t know what it is

And we’re just hoping it’s not

You know

The Nuclear Apocalypse

It’s as if we’re all collectively

Sitting in a car

Listening to a sad song

On the radio

And it’s raining outside

And we really don’t want to get out of the car

But we know we have to

Eventually

That’s how I feel

On a daily basis now

I’m not, you know

Depressed…I don’t think

But that might be because

I associate depression

With isolation

And it feels odd

To feel what feels like depression

And have so many other people

Publicly feeling

The exact same thing

There should be a word for that

And I can’t find it

I just can’t find the word

The words

The words to describe

What’s happening right now

To me

To everybody

And for a writer

That’s just--

I mean, it never feels good

When you’re having a hard time

Expressing yourself

But when you literally cannot find a word

To describe your own identity

In a given moment

But you’re a writer?

On top of everything else

You just feel like

You’ve failed

At something

Something integral

To who you are

I wish there was a word

I wish there was a word

For all of that